About The Book

I’m Happy I Promise is a story of addiction, survival, faith, family, and the long road toward healing. Told through both Ryan’s per- spective and his mother’s, this book follows choices, shame, fear, consequences, and moments of grace that shaped one family’s journey.

From childhood anxiety and self-destruction to incarceration, relapse, fentanyl addiction, and near-death moments, Ryan shares the truth of what it feels like to lose yourself and still search for a reason to keep going.

Alongside his voice, his mother shares the heartbreak of loving a child through addiction-the fear of unanswered calls, the guilt, the anger, the prayers, and the hope that refused to die. Together, their perspectives reveal how addiction affects not only the person who uses, but everyone who loves them.

At its heart a promise is made. Not to be perfect. Not to never slip. But to keep showing up. To keep fighting. To keep choosing a better path. This is a story about mindset, gratitude, forgiveness, accountability, and the belief that no one is too far gone to be rewritten. It is for anyone struggling with addiction, anyone who loves someone who is, and anyone learning how to find light after years of darkness.